our lives get packed away into cardboard boxes and rubbermaid containers, and soon we're crying, squeezing each other as hard as we possibly can, thinking that maybe if we hold on tight enough, none of the irreplacable experiences we've shared will slip away with time and space. maybe we'll be able to take every little bit we've learned with us, every stupid act we've committed, every difference we've made in someone elses life.. just everything that runs so deeply through our souls and encourages/inspires us to continue on.
i used to send e-mails out to all of my friends when i was in middle school with passages that started something like that and then miraculously turned around into some optimistic yet bitter sweet lesson about life.
tonight i don't have the energy to do it. nor do i feel like finding it.
since i started this blog, i've had people mention to me something i wrote that they had read or just mention that they read my blog.. people who i just never knew read this. if you're one of those people.. or just anyone..someone who i've stopped talking to, someone who i barely know, someone who i've known forever.. tonight i could really use some words of love. you can post anonymous. but i'm asking for some thoughtful words.. about anything. i want to know how people are living.
i leave for school the 23rd. until then i'll be packing my room up, and taking care of any/all unfinished business i can find. i don't want to leave with things untied.
there are so many things i want to say to so many people.. and there's no way i'll get them all said. that's okay... but yeah, it's the time to say the things we want to say.
i already miss kathleen's kitchen and mom.
it's all meant so much that this lump in my throat just won't subside.
posted by Rachael @ 18.8.05
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11 Comments:
it's all about GUMPTION and gaining it (the energy to be who you are and do what you need to do). its weird cause how much we impact eachothers lives goes without saying and with complete understanding; but i can't explain how many times i've been given that energy i needed to keep going in the right direction from you. I'm 100% behind you in every endeavor you seek to pursue, your heart is a beautiful one. this love is something thats created hope in our lives i think, and that hope is one of the most important things in the world. let that hope live on for as long as you live.
You're turning a page and starting a new chapter. You feel it, but you don't want to recognize the feeling.
Embrace it Rachael. Like Jodi says: you have a beautiful heart.
For good people like you, everything always turns out fine.
It's hard for me to really give you advice because I'm experiencing many of the same feelings that you are. I hope that there's comfort in knowing that you aren't alone. We're in a good position to grow.
but i guess that this is the price
that we pay for the privilege
of living for even a day
in a world with so many things
worth believing
in.
- ani difranco
Ah Rachael, we'll always have Faceprint Global Solutions.
If you think about, I think that made sense. Let me know and we'll talk.
i don't doubt for one second that we will always be HUGE parts of each other's lives. day to day living is what created something so big, so beautiful. standing on our own will allow us to "bring each other to different parts of the world" (as jodi so elegantly put it) and isn't that wonderful? rachael leigh YOU are about to do some amazing things. your core is nothing but good and love and it is THAT essence that will guide you wherever it is you need to be, doing whatever things you need to do. lets take this one step at a time. its only today! i love you rachael. lets be BIG!
we ARE big.
eh lets face it paige falls flat when it comes to inspirational words. the only ones i have really liked recently were 'life is short! running makes it seem longer!' which is a favorite running mantra of mine. thats all i got.
i love you and just to let yo uknow im feeling that lump in my throat to.. going to xc practices and seeing andrew makes me feel so alone.. but i know that will fade in a week. i just dont want it to fade because i never like seeing any love fade. and then just generally i feel so old and apart and alone. but its really all gonna be okay and we're all going to have an AMAZING time in college. plenty more adventures to come by
paigey
thanks for your comments guys... it's a weird stage that we're all going through. natural and weird and sad and exciting. love yall.
The only ones for me are the mad ones, the ones that are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars...
-Jack Kerouac
beautiful and perfect. thank you.
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