oh the beauty of proactivity!

i just want to note for the record that since i got home from boston i've been feeling a butt load better than before i left. thank you mom for initiating some pro-activity in me.

last night was fun... jodi, kathleen and i all sat around my kitchen table with our wonderful mothers drinking coffee and eating sweets... talking, laughing, sheding a few tears, recounting and telling great stories... etc... it was wonderful. jodi's mom was talking about the myers briggs personality typing for a little bit and eventually got to the catagory of "perceiving vs. judging". "judgers" are much more concerned with actually FINISHING what they start... organizing themselves in a fashion that will lead them to getting things DONE. "percievers" on the ohter hand, begin projects or tasks or sentences for that matter, and don't always finish them... becasue the energey gets lost somewhere along the way and assigned to a NEW project that will soon be dropped in the same mannor (unless, of course, the project is of high interest to that "perceiver") so anyway.. i was just thinking about myself, looking around my room at all of my unfinished projects (i'm a super "perceiver") and just thought... you know, i love that i don't have to plan everything out and that i get distracted and i'm very spontaneous.. but at the same time, i want to make sure that as i get older, i don't let that spontaneity (sp) get off track and receed into a static laziness. i hope that i continue to find new interests constantly and the urge to explore varrying tasks.

it's easy to fall into a rut and not know how to get yourself out of it.. espcially if you innately follow the path of whatever mood you happpen to be in. i mean, HOW do you get out of a bad place if you can't essentially schedule yourself out of it?... by being PROACTIVE! by taking actual physcial steps toward the root of the problem, toward confrontation, and toward DEALING. my trip to boston was proactive because i got to face and explore new solutions for what was dragging me down: my dred of what next year would be like.

sometimes it's as much as writing a list of everything that's actually bothering you. and then writing a list of ways to aide those troubles. i think the key to getting out of a rut is to really face what's causing the rut. from there, answers are much easier.

with that said.. my dad's going to buy a mini coup in towson.. (sweet, hand me down car).. and the dealership just so happens to be right tear TU. so yeah, i'm going with him to visit the campus that i've never seen of the university i'm going to in the fall.


happy trails. <3


(kathleen and i went bike riding today for an hour or so... it was awesome. i love you kathleen)