things to be glad and happy and well about.

well if this whole sequence of events hasn't been an experience...
there are so many things that i'm glad about right now.

i'm reading this very life-changing, enlightening, book of wisdom called "Too Soon Old, Too Late Smart. 30 Things You Need to Know Now" by Dr. something Livingston.. (i'll post his first name at a later date for the zero people who read this blog other than myself.. i love how i write these side comments as if someone other than myself is going to read them) Anyway, the book is posed with 30 different chapter titles all of which sum up a 3-7 page essay of illuminated perspective. I've read through chapter 28 with two left to go, and let me tell you, i wish the book was titled Infinite Things You Need to Know Now! I swear this book has helped me with so many things... with the situation that i'm in right now with ryan, with understanding the situation that i have with my parents as well as many relationships with my friends and other family members etc... I recommend this book to anyone and everyone. I have gained so much from such a quick read and I'm sure that everyone who sat down for a few minutes with this book would gain something different of importance to their own life.

I'm really really... happy... that things with ryan are on a good track. Granted that starting a relationship when you're half way through your senior year in high school isn't necessarily the smartest thing to do, but when two people are willing to and want to make something work, then you go with it. I don't think either ryan or i were ready to be in a relationship that would take the committment of our time, or more the investment of our hearts when things first got started between us. it's a big wager to make.. one with our hearts.. and after a life time of failed examples surrounding us in real life...the media or television never teach that it's okay for things not to be perfect.. and it's okay to have differences, and it's okay to disagree and not like things about one another. such a 'love' where people show committment and ethics is hardly ever portrayed. the kind of love shown is always sparks and magic and basically b.s. that only lasts for the first week or so of a relationship before reality hits. the good thing is that reality is something that can really be polished. it's hard to polish something that's already a bunch of gloss.. you gotta get to the core of the matter before it can be made into it's greatest potential. sooo yeah. my point is.. ryan and i went through some crap to get to where we are.. but it was vital. and now we have the chance to polish and enjoy. and yay. because it's fun. and ryan's a great person. and yeah.. happy birds chirpping flying free gay jolly etc etc..

so i got a new job at clyde's. i'm going to hostess until i turn 18, which is shortly, and then waitress and make super tips. the down side? training 5 days at the headquarters in Georgetown from 5-10pm on weeeeeknights. but it's all good because this is the start of some new capital opportunities.. aka.. spending money for GREECE. which by the way, i am pissing my pants with excitement waiting for. ooh meee oh myy greeceeeee how i want to lie naked on your beachesssss...

so other things that i am very glad about. jodi's going to be on the howard county station... they're going to air 5 of her songs!!! and jodi's happiness is my happiness.. plus she just kicks major ass and deserves everything she ever gets. god. i love jodi.

the play is fun.. i don't care that i have no part... danielle and i do our cool thing with the metal slide in "I've Got Rhythm" and i get to see DAN FINALLY! dan is one of those special people in this world that just makes me so happy to see that i want to jump and laugh and swim and fly all at the same time.

alright, so i am off to read chapter 29.. and maybe do some homework that i promised myself that i would do ('Life is full of broken promises to ourselves' - a quote from the awesome book)... and then sleep. because god do i ever love sleeping.


and might i add that ani difranco is so beautifully wonderful. listen to her music. right now.