Another day in Paradise

hmmm... although i'm exhausted from endless work... i've been having a great time with everything latly. I needed some newness in my life, and here it is. (for now.. until i get bored and move onto yet another new adventure. I wonder if I'll ever settle down. hmm.) And i'm confident that i'll get a hang out this waiting tables thing. Just need some practice, poise, and study time with that damn menu. But the people at Clyde's are all really friendly (and attractive.. haha) yay.


Anyway, so it's my birthday.. i'm officially an "adult"! For some reason it's just not a big deal to me. (except of course, my ability to now buy porn.... and finally have my own debit card!) I don't think I've ever been much of a big birthday person... I guess when you expect too much out of them they're just a let down. Or that's what I've learned from the past... so I've stoped expecting.. and it usually works out much nicer this way. I mean, I've got all the gifts that I could ever really ask for in my life every day... so really, I don't want/ask for more. And I know that probably sounds.. I don't know, what it sounds like.. haha cause it's just really the way that I feel. So yeah... my dad has a basketball game tonight, so my parents are going to that.. and I don't think we're even going out.. I feel pretty sick and I've got loads of homework (that I'm actually going to do) so it's not a big deal... BUT tomorrow night I think micayla and my parents and I are all gonna get something to eat... .and SATURDAY me, jo, kat, jud, and danielle are gonna go to b-mo, get some sushi at this sweet place, and then catch a movie at the Charles. which will be awesome.

i love when people make me mixed cds... cause it's not only a thoughtful gift, but they're giving a piece of themselves. a piece of their taste and their likings... i dunno, i just think it's more personal than music on plastic. it's them.

i really do love people. like people are what i'm passionate about. i could sit in a room for hours just observing the way a group is interacting with one another. it's innate for me. and there's no class that can give me a grade for excelling at my strengths... and i think it's almost better that way. it's as if i just get to be what i am. and everything i experience is the way that i learn.. every atmosphere and environment is my classroom. and i love it. i love learning and growing a changing. and yay. and new music espcially.


sitting in physics today was interesting... simmdawg was talking about something or the other.. in some scientist language that i speak poorly... and i just thought, "these people are living in their world." and you're probably thinking.. well yeah, duh.. don't we all live in our world? But really, it seems to me that there are so many different types of people living in different worlds... and that's where there's so much conflict and beauty in life. People's worlds colliding create the most explosive junctures. And it's all about how a person views the explosion. Personally, I think it's beautiful... certain days when I stop observing and begin to let myself just run into the world of physics, I find myself getting pissed off sometimes because I don't want to be in THEIR world, I want to be in mine... i can't relate to their world! But when I step back and just look at the way their world works, it's just the same, just as beautiful, just a spoken in a different language. And I think it's just really important to be able to do that... to be able to step back and realize people just speak different languages.. but we're really not all that different. yeah. you get the picture.


Alright.. So on the Cd i'm listening to that a certain someone made for me some lyrics go as follows:
"some of us laugh some of cry some of us smoke some of us lie but it's all just the way that we cope with our lives" :: "some of us" - star sailor (excellent song)


yeah, this post is excessive. have a wonderful day. i'm so in love with so many of you. thank you.