a wave of changes

for lack of eloquency, just to get these thoughts/updates out
1) i'm going to towson in the fall and transfering to northeastern in the spring if i don't still get in first semester
2)i cleaned my room
3) i love my friends
4)i love a fella in a very non conventional style - and i've come to terms with that
5) it's scary and inviting to think of everything that will change come september...
6) but for now, there are so many amazing opportunities and chances to be lived that most definitely won't sink with a scared attitude.
7) because the concept and reality of right NOW is so important and so empowering if used that way.
8) senior suprilitives bother me.. i just don't understand their importance. someone care to argue that? i'd like to hear a different opinion.
9) the motivational speaker at the band trip was very motivational, for lack of creative word choice.
10) it amazed me today in class to really look at how selfish and immature a great majority of students are.... is learning in class not a team effort too? that with a few bad seeds, the whole experience can be easily posioned? or with more positivity, can be skyrocketed with illumination and encouragement?

alright, the list thing was just to get so many thoguhts out quickly...

i'm going to walk around the lake with jodi on this beautiful day. comment if you'd like more depth on one of my rants... rants is a positive word-- because talking about things is good!

that brings something else up -- imagine if people didn't ignore/hide their daily misfortunes. imagine if people weren't ridiculed for feeling sad.. imagine if a genuine moment was taken out of every day to really ask someone else.. hey, what's up? how you doin today? -- fine is such a cop out answer. and in some places.. people really stop to hear the truth.. and i just think that if that happened more places... if more people actually wanted to hear the truth, less people would be afraid or embarrased to admit their truths.. and maybe we'd all be better off. i think so.

i haven't made time to sit down and really get out all the things i want to say. but soon enough, i will. thanks for reading.
rach